Suffer In Silence

don't suffer alone….



I am grateful to so many people who led me through the mazes of my troubled life. In most instances, it was painful for them to witness my sadness and upset. In terms of human misery and regret, it didn’t really matter which side they supported. Those who believed in Emey are just as bereft as those who believed in me. While I am confident that this Text book diary will resonate with many of those involved in my sad journey, I am keenly aware that some others will disagree with my reasons for publicising what was meant to be personal and private information between husband and wife.

I want to thank my children who throughout my life have given me the power and dedication to achieve my goals, They have been in my life and have not only supported me in EVERYTHING I have done, but have been by my side endlessly. They are the reason why I am still here today. I want to thank my Mum for giving me breath, for standing by me in my ups and downs in life, for picking me up when I have fallen and for being my no 1 fan and to my step dad for being my dad since I was a teenager and taking me under his wing. I would also like to thank my friends, there are too many to list, some of you I have known since I was 3 years old and some only just recently. You have been what I call true loyal friends who have helped me so much during my 4 months of hell since being arrested and charged with Common Assault by Beating. To my extended family, no words placed here can express how much I want to thank you, you were there when I needed you, my Cousins young and old, my

Uncle’s, Auntie’s, nieces, nephews and half –sister, I simply could not have survived my nightmare without your support. I want to also thank my god children who have sent me wishes of support and hugs. I want to thank my step daughter who was in my life since 2008 till 20th December 2012 for welcoming me into your life, for the fun times we had, for the everyday life we shared, laughter, smiles and tears. I hope that one day we will reunite. I want to thank my other step- daughter Ashley Smith (smurfet). The day you came to see me by surprise on the 2nd February 2013 and I cried for 10 minutes on your shoulder was so kind of you, for you to want to see me, want to so spend time with me,to call me daddy and wish to one day live with me, tells me im not a bad person. If it was not for you, I may never have written this text book story. Having read your book “Just a Daddy’s girl”,you published in 2009 gave me the strength to create my own and I so thank you for believing in me. I want to thank all my characters witnesses who took the time to write referen

ces to the court, without your input I believe my sentence would have been worse, including my pre- sentence report from my probation officer. Lastly I want to thank one man, this man has stood by my side, not only for the last 4 mont

hs but has believed in me and accepted me for who I am as a person since 2008. He is the only person who knew what I was going through, who tried his best to help me and his daughter Emey. He knows I could never do what Emey has sought to paint me as a Wife Beater. For him to side with his son in law over his biological daughter says so much. Grahdad (father in law) I simply can’t thank you enough for everything you have done for me and continue

To Emey, I’m not jumping up and down with joy in anyway. It really saddens me that things have turned out they way they have for both of us. Our dream did not last; we are both victims from each other. We wanted to be soul mates, we waited 26 years to be together and we thought “it would last” well I did and I’m sorry, I’m sorry for one thing and that was for what happened on the 18th December.2012, regardless of who did what, it should never of happened. I wish you every happiness in the future and hope you find peace in your life.  to do so. Although it saddens me to know that you and Emey are no longer communicating, I know that you have your reasons for this, that NO one can judge or criticise you for.

When somebody hurts you, they take power over you – if you don’t forgive them then they keep the power. Forgive them and after you forgive them, forgive yourself.

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